Better late than never....

So I know, I know, it's been forever..... but at least I'm trying haha

Anyyywaayyss, life is so great right now. I am finishing up my last semester of generals in school and then it will all just be program classes and maybe some fun classes mixed in, like bowling (i need practice). So it was just General Conference weekend which, when I was younger, used to be my least favorite weekend because it meant that if I wanted to do anything fun on that Saturday then I wouldn't have a ride during most of the prime hours I would need one but also my favorite because on Sunday my family would have a big delicious breakfast and just relax and listen together as a family and it usually included everyone watching whoever the baby was at the time and laughing at whatever they were doing. Now, since I'm all mature and everything, General Conference weekend is my all around favorite weekend. This year was no different. I had 3 papers/assignments due on the Monday after conference, which I don't understand since it's BYU, but I tried really hard to get all of those done before Friday night(football game) so I didn't have to worry about it. I tried extra hard all week to get myself prepared for conference and it really made such a difference. I feel like I got so much more out of everything. On Saturday I had to wake up early since I had tickets to go to the Saturday morning session... sooo, Derek came to pick me up at 7:15 (he was right on time :)) and then we went to pick up Sarah's new "friend" Michael because it made more sense to pick him up before Sarah who we went to get next. We then made the drive to SLC and were finally in our seats for conference. See LOOK!

There is one of me and Derek too but he doesn't like it so I won't post it because I'm nice like that haha. So, we watched conference and it was so awesome! After the first session, Michael went home or something and me, Derek and Sarah met up with Stephie, Brad, Jackson, Alex, and Sarah Jayne for some lunch and then sat on the grass on Temple Square to listen to the 2nd session. Then Sunday was great too!

I should also mention that me and Derek got to go to the best basketball game I've ever been too, it was the Jimmer's All Stars game and it was basically a bunch of the top NBA draftees just playing an exhibition game against each other. It was so fun to watch! After we met up with Aimee and Colby and got a picture!

(I stole this picture from Aimee)

So I know this is waaaayyy out of order but BYU football played UCF a week and a half ago and I thought that was pretty cool being that UCF is in my HT! haha It was such a close and fun game to watch! I love sitting with my girlsssss because we go crazy :)

I love these girls sooo much! (I stole this picture from Michelle) Also, funny story about this picture... So my friend at work says to me that he saw a picture of me and my sister on facebook and we look exactly alike... so I asked which picture he was talking about and he said this one.... I then told him that these aren't my sisters (biologically) and he said that he thought that me and Aimee looked a lot like each other.... which is funny since last year our bishop would get us confused or people would ask us if we were sisters and I don't think we look that much alike for people to mistake us for sisters... i mean it's one thing to believe us if we tell you that but to actually ask us if we are or think we are is different haha ohhh well, I guess we look like sisters, and me and michelle look like bosom buddies (which we are).

I guess the last thing I will write today is that I didn't know my heart could feel so happy all the time and even though I'm with someone a lot, I can miss them for the short amounts of time we aren't together. :)

I just love this boy! I can't wait for my family to meet him :)

Reality is rough

I know it's been a while since my last post and I honestly wrote a whole long post a while ago and somehow accidentally deleted the entire thing.. pictures and all... after that experience I was mad at the system and have been holding a grudge against it. I guess I finally let that go haha

Anywayssss, my family all knows I'm a huuggee stresser, I stress about pretty much anything and everything. My mom even used to tell me when I was younger that I would probably have an ulcer by the time I was 20(I'm almost there and still haven't had one.. I guess I can count myself lucky ha). Over the years I've gotten much better at handling my stress but lately I think that the "handling" it has really just been hiding it. The past few days it has been real evident that the stress is still there, I just never share it with anyone because I don't want to bore people with my little stresses in life. Lately though, I've had a lot of things on my mind and it fills my brain at all hours of the day. I was sick earlier on in the week and was sooo tired but I could not fall asleep to take a nap because my brain goes through everything in it which leads me to think of other things and it is a never ending cycle. I keep thinking that these should be the care free(except school) years of my life and I'm realizing they are much the opposite. I think I've just been pretending to be care free(I'm actually pretty good at it) but whenever I sit to think or even just sit and then end up thinking, I go through lists in my head of things I need to do or things I'm worried about and I realize that my life is far from care free. There are just so many things to do it's hard to even find a day where I can sleep in and usually on those days I end up waking up early anyways and not being able to go back to sleep. It's an unending cycle that is beginning to drive me crazy.

All of this probably sounds depressing or is probably even stressing you out reading it.... Oh and by the way if there are typos it's because I'm not going to proofread this because if I did i'd have to think about it again... but I have come to find my solace in one thing.

1. sisters. Sisters are one of the best things in life. They are always there for you and rarely ever judge. They are some of the people that know me the best and know what to say to me. I'm lucky to have a lot of sisters and so I never feel shorted on feeling the love. I also have a sister who will go shoe shopping with me and love every second of it and who will write me the nicest of PAPER letters(Lizzie)

and a sister who is always down for a beach day and telling me the latest in her life and she makes me feel needed because she wants advice(Jenny)

and a sister who will always remind me of the most important things in life and put things in perspective for me and will always make me feel good about myself(Sarah)

and I'll always have a sister who will do crazy things with me like encrust glitter all over our faces and sing extra loud in the car just for fun(Stephie)

and I will always have a sister who will go and be fancy with me and listen while I talk on and on about my feelings or day or date I went on and will never judge anything I do or say(Chrissy).

my sisters are my solace.

I love my sistas!

I also love my brothers... but that's a different post.